Something I've realized about myself as I've gotten older is that life is not as fun and adventurous as it used to be back in high school and college. I was more spontaneous and I had a lot more room to budge with my free time.
If I wanted to go on a road trip, I could. If I wanted to hang out with friends, we arranged it that day and it happened! If I wanted to do nothing all day, I could. It was glorious.
But now, I have obligations to be places every day or every few days. I know my schedule is pretty much the same with a few exceptions week-to-week. I find myself being disappointed with events that used to be so exciting. I'm always confused as to why something that I anticipated so much couldn't keep that nagging feeling of emptiness away. I think I figured it out......
I have so much excitement building and building for an event, that when its actually over, I get disappointed and down.
Like for example, I can get so excited for a weekend full of fun events, that when they're over, I feel sad.
Why? I believe I have made a god of "moments." I have let my heart get so entangled with the emotions of fun events fulfilling me, that I have missed the mark.
What does it mean to make a god of a moment or moments? It means that I have let the rush and excitement of special or important moments in my life take the place of God. I have expected them to fill me up and make me happy and well, they're just not. Sure, they encourage me and make life not so monotonous, but they're not meeting my needs like I want them to.
How do I fix that? I need to turn to the Source of happiness, which is God. He has promised me that He will fill me with joy in His presence and that eternal pleasures are at His right hand. (Psalm 16:11)
So, when I really spend time with Him and see the big picture of who He is and what He's doing, those things that I depended on to bring happiness are just extra blessings in my life that come. They're not the true source of my happiness and they won't leave me feeling empty anymore. They'll make me all the more grateful for His many blessings in my life.
So, Here's the scenario now...
When I go to this amazing event in my life and feel sorely disappointed it's over, I will choose to remember that my true source of happiness comes from God alone. We, as humans are just not capable of comprehending how high, how deep and how high His love is for us and how much He wants to fill us up every day. But we can try. I'm going to try harder this week to find that God, the Maker of all of my moments, is fully capable of making me glad. Will you join me?

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