Yes, I'm really pregnant!! What???
I always dreamed of the day that I would be pregnant and have a little baby..seriously, always. Even as a young child, I used to desire to be around kids ALL the time and I longed for the feeling of a little baby or child to want me to hold them and for them to need me. I started babysitting the minute that I could begin and have worked with kids my whole life. And now...I find myself paralyzed in fear at times at the thought of a child growing inside of me...that I'M responsible for
FOR-EEEEEEEEEVER!!!! (Cue "The Sandlot" kid)
Don't get me wrong....I can't believe that God has chosen me, us, to have a child of our own. I know that it is a HUGE blessing to have the privilege to carry a child of my own. And I have no doubt that God is equipping me as I type for this little being inside of me..and it's truly amazing. But, I'm human and haven't ever had to be This responsible before, so sometimes I let that get the best of me.
So, here's my lowdown on pregnancy so far:
*Maybe some of you won't believe this...but I knew before I could've known that I was pregnant. The strangest sign that I felt was really bad lower back pain. (Weird, because obviously the little baby was extremely tiny at that point!!) It was so bad one day that I literally had to stand up or I felt like I was going to pass out. I drove to get a root beer to help with the dizziness and felt better. It was WeIrD!!
*Nausea is not that fun!!!!! I had to learn the whole process of eating when you wake up or just eating whenever you feel hungry. I have never once thought before now, "Hey, let me eat while I'm feeling sick!" But since this little baby has started taking over, that's been my solution!! By the way, never in my life have I felt more like a cat than since I have been pregnant...I gag at random things and at random times. I can just be standing in the kitchen and I will gag at something I see or smell. Sooooo strange!
*My husband has had to learn a lot of patience, especially during Trimester 1. I NEVER knew what I wanted to eat near the beginning of the pregnancy....still don't really. My sweet husband took over when I couldn't stand being in the kitchen (well, let's be honest...he's the chef in our family) and tried to fix me meals every day to accommodate to my nausea. I have only tolerated a lot of crackers, bread, lots of fruit, salad, and chips and salsa, to name a few. Oh, and this baby has decided that pizza would make me feel better on more than one occasion. Crazy that one of the most acidic foods would make my stomach feel better! I have not enjoyed meats, rice, eggs, and even sweets as much as I used to. As someone who loves food and always has, this is extremely unusual for me to not know what I want to eat pretty much ever and to learn how to stop eating if it's not agreeing with me. I was very proud of myself the other day, because Daniel asked me what I wanted to eat and I requested steak and potatoes...ate it, and enjoyed it!!!! He was so proud! Ha!
Oh, and how confusing is it that I am SOOOOOO hungry, start eating, and then have to almost immediately stop eating because I'm full? I am constantly amazed at how much room I Don't have in my stomach for food and the baby is not even that big yet. Wow, I'm in for a ride!
*I did have one realllllly bad day a couple of weeks ago where I had a stomach virus. It was very confusing because I thought I was finally reaching that "feeling better" moment, so I had no idea why I was throwing up again all of a sudden. I went to work and people kept saying, "Ohhhh, that's the crazy morning sickness!! You just never know!" Well, I knew that if it truly was morning sickness, that I was carrying Rosemary's baby for the day...because it was AWFUL!!!! I finally gave in after almost a full day of keeping nothing down and called my doctor who quickly prescribed me anti nausea/anti vomiting medicine. After that, I started to feel much better!!! Oh, and it WAS NOT morning sickness, so I found out!!!!!
Other than that, apparently I've had a pretty smooth start to pregnancy. I've slowly found myself falling for this little baby as I go. From seeing the baby, to hearing the heartbeat, to learning more about what s/he is developing inside there...it's really incredible and too overwhelming of a feeling to put it into words.
And!!!! Here's the little baby at 8 weeks!
Fast facts:
-Baby is due November 3rd, which I have decided should be a pretty good time of year in the school year to fall into (if there's ever a good time! ha!), with a Christmas break on the way.
-Baby's heart rate has stayed pretty high, which most say means it's a girl. But really, who knows!
-Daniel thinks it's a boy and I think it's a girl.
-I had a very real dream the other day that it was a boy and he was born way, way too early!! My dream life has NOT been boring.
I'm sure there will be more to share as I go, but for now, that's all I've got! So, here's to getting through Trimester 1 and moving forward with Trimester 2. Somebody toast on my behalf, because I can't partake currently! :)
